In writing this series that I have been working on dealing with inner game, beliefs and psychological structures, I’ve had to revisit both new and old events and experiences in my life. A few weeks back, some events took place that for some reason broke through my layers of detached cynical stoicism, and bothered me to the core. A characteristic of my personality is that I can rarely let something go without figuring it out, and my reaction to the events was no exception.
As I outlined in internal messages, it’s important to identify the core premises of your internal software, in order to rewrite those parts of the program that keep you from achieving the goals you desire. One I experienced for a long time was a tendency to self-sabotage and neglect key areas of life, because of an old internal message, one that stated “The only thing that matters is being a good worker at your job“, thus if this was the only thing worth excelling at, why bother trying to excel or even handle other areas of life?
While digging through the old discarded thoughts, patterns and principles, I came upon the one that broke the cynical barrier, namely the concept called “karma”. I used to find the concept of Karma to be a very attractive one, namely that the Universe will conspire to ensure that those who are virtuous, just and display the merits will be rewarded, while those who are the opposite inevitably will be punished. Even though I had long ago accepted that the Universe is at best uncaring, I still had a tendency to act from a place of what I perceived as virtue.
Such behavior on my part was a manifestation of habit, rather than one of conscious action, I didn’t elect to offer assistance so much as I did so because I had been brought up and encouraged behave in this manner my whole life. The idea I suppose being the “Golden Rule”, and doing unto others as you would want them to do onto you. However, I realized that this usually creates a negative balance in the same manner that communism does, in that some frequently need help but are rarely able to offer it, where others are frequently able to offer it, but rarely need it.
Such behavior is thus, both idealistic and naive, and cognitively I believe that this is the principle that serves as the basis for all blue pill thought. One can be blue pill without without many of the symptoms, but the ultimate cause of the disorder is a belief in the just nature of the Universe. The core idea behind the blue pill is that virtue is rewarded, yet no one can quantify the reward.
Blue Pill Justice
When we discuss the blue pill, it is often portrayed as a very idealistic perception of the world. Women are virtuous by nature, made of sugar and spice, a woman can never do wrong, and in cases where a woman commits a heinous act, the responsibility and blame never lies with her, but with someone else. However, this view of women, is not the totality of the blue pill. The belief in the just nature of the various structures we have built around us such as family courts, divorce court, law enforcement, and others that serve a role in intersexual dynamics also factor in heavily.
For instance the blue pill man likely holds the view that his wife is a virtuous woman, without vacillating vices, various virulent vexations, and without will for warfare. He also is likely is a stern believer in the virtues of modern law, and those mechanisms that govern the relationship with his wife. His view dictates that if he is a good man the woman who is his “soul mate” will be a good woman, as it would be unjust should a good man find himself with a woman who is his antithesis. If he sacrifices for her, then she will sacrifice for him, if he makes concessions to her, she will do likewise to him, thus there is order. After all, without order there cannot be justice, and without justice there cannot be balance.
In the world of the blue pill man, if he is just and fair, his wife will be just and fair, should a divorce becomes necessary, he believes that the woman, the courts and the agents of the state will reciprocate his behavior. He feels that this is earned through the merits he can display, his behavior towards his wife, as a pillar of the community, as an example for young men, and in many other ways through which his benevolence has been demonstrated.
The Blue Pill Meritocracy
In the world of the blue pill man, the value of his life is a consequence of the merits he earns through virtuous behavior. This behavior follows the “Good Boys” pattern, which consists of engaging in acts and displays based on what is deemed virtuous or “right” behavior by the social group within which he lives. For instance, the blue pill man will expect to earn points through being a hard worker, gaining his college degree, getting married, being the father of 2.5 kids, raised in the house surrounded by the white picket fence.
To him these checks he makes on his list of “Socially desirable acts by a man”, in his mind increases his equity and creates a debt which the Universe must make good to him. This follows the basics of equity theory, in that the man through being the embodiment of “A Good Man” as defined by his social group, expects the group to repay him in proportional reciprocity to the good he does for the group.
Likewise, he does his acts based not on a desire to do them out of his own heart, but out of an expectation that doing them will garner him the rewards he so much desires. The most obvious red pill example of these principles is the one that I outlined in the essay on equity and expectancy theory. However, a simple example is that a man who works unpaid overtime and as a result produces additional profits for his firm, does so out of an expectation that he will be compensated in a ratio that is fair compared to the additional profits he has created.
Thus, the blue pill man lives in a world of order, wherein merit decides rewards, and merits are based on those things that are deemed virtues.
Karma and The Blue Pill
One of the core principles of the red pill is merit, that in order to be a man, one must do and accomplish. Men grow stronger through adversity, as they are placed in increasingly challenging crucibles that test their mettle. The problem with the modern blue pill man is that instead of testing himself against resistance, he floats down the river and expects the river to provide for him the reward for floating along.
He has not rocked the boat, and thus he expects to be handsomely rewarded, which is like expecting to become rich merely because you are able to breathe. However, when his rewards do not manifest, and instead he observes men who not only rock the boat, but drill holes in it and set it on fire, receive a king’s ransom, this destroys the illusion upon which he has built his life. His view of merit, justice and through this karma is upset, because his life is built on “If A, then B”. As if an accountant was sitting with a ledger behind the scenes and slowly balancing the books of life to be just and fair as defined by the blue pill man.
He realizes that investing his resources how he was told to invest them, was like sowing grapes in salted earth. That being the rock upon which the social framework rests, is like building a house of cards during an earthquake. That being the blind man in a world in which all other men can see, where he has trusted the others to lead him, and when he opens his eyes he sees that they have all brought him to take his place in the wicker man.
This is where the anger phase of the red pill comes from, the realization that he is a player in a gigantic game where those who prosper are those who do for self, not for others. Those who make their own rules instead of following those designed by others. Those who have realized that “Fairness”, “Justice”, “Karma”, “Morality” and various others guidelines for behavior are like fiat currency, they only have the value that we believe they have. They serve as tools for the one-eyed to lead the blind to the altar to be sacrificed.
Summary and Conclusions
This brings me to the foundation of the crack in my cynical detachment referenced earlier in the essay, while I long ago realized that justice is merely a convenient concept that people reference when it suits them, and discard when no longer expedient or convenient, I still had an attachment to the idea of karma. This meaning that those who do harm will eventually have harm come to them, and those who do good will eventually have good come to them. However, in reviewing moral philosophy, the challenge will always be arriving at the objective morality, that morality which governs all.
There is an old example from game theory called “Tit for Tat” that dealt with a game where you had 2 actors, “Takers” and “Givers”, over time the population of “Givers” would diminish until one was left only with the takers, at which point the group would be less reproductively fit, because nobody was creating value, but everyone was taking value. However, when one introduced a new actor to the game, one that would remember and reciprocate the last action of another actor, the takers were slowly driven out of the population. The “Tit for Tat” actor, would give when the other actor had elected to give, and take when the other actor had elected to take.
The blue pill man is in a position where he is frequently in the role of “Giver”, yet he is surrounded by a population that has rejected the old social contract and largely consists of takers. However, he is himself a man who desires to be a taker, yet fails to be one. Thus, one could argue that the blue pill man is in a position of being taken advantage of for the benefit of the group to which he belongs, while secretly resenting them for not letting him take advantage of them. He is expected to build his life so that a woman who has done nothing to build hers can enter it, and share in his value, alternatively if she decides that sharing does not make her happy she can through the power of law transfer it to her.
This made me think of the stages a man goes through when he finds the red pill. First he is in denial, then if he continues he becomes angry, after anger he bargains, then enters a depression and finally he reaches the stage of acceptance. However, what comes after accepting the red pill truth?
When a man accepts a new idea, that does not mean that the ones that idea replaced are automatically scrubbed from his mind in their entirety, and he awakes from the ashes of his former self. It merely means that the conscious software that guides him has received an update that affects him going forward. As he consciously through will and discipline acts in accordance with the new software, the new software slowly grows more powerful than the old software, and over time he may even completely overwrite the old software.
However, in many cases within his mind pieces and fragments of the old software lingers, waiting for the right moment to reassert itself and take control, unless he actively works to identify and delete it. This is what comes after acceptance, the need to act and think in a way that powers up your new software and roots out the old software. In many cases one finds pieces of old software years after one reached the acceptance stage. This is perhaps why one can often observe that some men are like Cypher in the Matrix, after seeing the red pill truth, they end up desiring going back to their old blue pill existence.
Alternatively, they may continue to manifest some blue pill traits, tendencies, thoughts and behaviors long after they have reached the stage of acceptance. This is merely a sign that the new software has not fully taken hold, and requires more work in order to function optimally. Furthermore, that no man in existence is “pure red pill” or “pure blue pill” in that they are in a state of constant flux between their new and their old software.
Thus, acceptance is merely the first step, once one reaches acceptance the real work begins with making sure that the old habits do not escape their quarantine.